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A skewed perception of Mike
What would cause a man to leave a career in a budding artistic industry of video games, digital animation?
a friend asked him to move away at a critical time.
What would cause the same man to leave 'the love' of his life to live in solitude? He felt like he wasn't worthy because he screwed away his career. Didn't make good money & was working in an office. Not to mention he had commitment issues.
What would cause this man to leap off a two story roof? He saw a "jacob's ladder in the sky" and this confused his sense of 'trusting gravity' because of it's seemingly 'divine nature.'
Why would this same man continue to paint but paint worse paintings again and again? His best work wasn't marketed well and was hence not considered very valuable by Mike. He naturally became apathetic. He decided to 'paint worse paintings and sell them for more."
Why would this man care so little about money? And make masochism a habit? When his body broke he received so much pain that he needed to inflict pain upon himself for 'pain acceptance' and for pain comparison.
Why would this man give up on making 'good' decisions for himself but still allow himself to exist? His trusting people who steered him wrong, had him not being able to trust his own decisions and hence lost trust that he himself could possibly choose that which was 'good', even for himself. Yet, something had him believe that 'survival itself' was still valuable.
Why would a man move against lex naturalis? (definition below) After seeing radical 'super natural entities along with all that he suffered as well as his general confusion had him almost always going in a direction which was simply not in his own better self interest.
a friend asked him to move away at a critical time.
What would cause the same man to leave 'the love' of his life to live in solitude? He felt like he wasn't worthy because he screwed away his career. Didn't make good money & was working in an office. Not to mention he had commitment issues.
What would cause this man to leap off a two story roof? He saw a "jacob's ladder in the sky" and this confused his sense of 'trusting gravity' because of it's seemingly 'divine nature.'
Why would this same man continue to paint but paint worse paintings again and again? His best work wasn't marketed well and was hence not considered very valuable by Mike. He naturally became apathetic. He decided to 'paint worse paintings and sell them for more."
Why would this man care so little about money? And make masochism a habit? When his body broke he received so much pain that he needed to inflict pain upon himself for 'pain acceptance' and for pain comparison.
Why would this man give up on making 'good' decisions for himself but still allow himself to exist? His trusting people who steered him wrong, had him not being able to trust his own decisions and hence lost trust that he himself could possibly choose that which was 'good', even for himself. Yet, something had him believe that 'survival itself' was still valuable.
Why would a man move against lex naturalis? (definition below) After seeing radical 'super natural entities along with all that he suffered as well as his general confusion had him almost always going in a direction which was simply not in his own better self interest.
" "A law of nature, lex naturalis, is a precept, or general rule, found out by reason, by which a man is forbidden to do that which is destructive of his life, or taketh away the means of preserving the same, and to omit that by which he thinketh it may be best preserved."
~ Thomas Hobbs
~ Thomas Hobbs
March 8th,2010 Mike jumps off a two story building attempting to get to a star.
After performing a symbolic ceremony, a ghostly "head" led Michael up to a roof, and then seeing a 'jacob's Ladder' made of clouds leading up to the star. Mike fearing the gravity of the situation climbs down back to his apartment. Where feels guilt & re-arises back to the roof, where the cloud ladder is gone, and so Mike chooses a star to focus his leap towards, so he does it. He leaps & crashes.
-His damages were severe. Although landing to ground Mike to this day isn't sure he didn't land on another roughly parallel planet.
After performing a symbolic ceremony, a ghostly "head" led Michael up to a roof, and then seeing a 'jacob's Ladder' made of clouds leading up to the star. Mike fearing the gravity of the situation climbs down back to his apartment. Where feels guilt & re-arises back to the roof, where the cloud ladder is gone, and so Mike chooses a star to focus his leap towards, so he does it. He leaps & crashes.
-His damages were severe. Although landing to ground Mike to this day isn't sure he didn't land on another roughly parallel planet.
Schitzo-affective??
or becoming spiritually enlightened
Below is a photo of Michael showing off his new painting alongside his black-eye, his angel wings, in front of a canopy from which he sells his artwork.
Note: He is standing on his surgically reconstructed feet.
(photo credit 2015 Rudy Van Bree)
Note: He is standing on his surgically reconstructed feet.
(photo credit 2015 Rudy Van Bree)
^^ shortly after finishing the^^ painting "Back of some dude's phone" showing a fight between Katy Perry and Taylor Swift, that Mike would also get into a fight.
Mike not only was misguided about his career, ruined in love, experienced multiple super-natural entities and affects, lost the self/other distinction, became temporarily psychotic in the process and suffered the long term after math of living his adult life like it's one very very long super-slow motion car wreck.
For a long while Mike didn't trust anything about the nature of reality down to the identity of things/ideas/facts nor his own experiences. Later he touted a sort of philosophy which violates the 'Law of Identity' [A=A], violates the logical principle of the "Law of non-contradiction" considers de-foundational/anti-foundationalism, and touts para-consistent logic.
(A,(A,-A)) dialetheism and it's dialethe [(A,-A)] Namely Analetheism...[A,(A,-A)} & {(A,-A),-A]. And attempts to formulate "bounding contradictions" and creating "Post Logical-Explosion, associative groupings" such as to examine 'Logical Explosion" and to fetter out which contradictions could be accepted and grouped in one associative domain, and which must/should be rejected.
-After many years of personal, social, and psychological healing and repair, he strives to make balanced headway into his future, in a productive and sensible way. It is time that Mike saves the world to which he is emcompassed.
For a long while Mike didn't trust anything about the nature of reality down to the identity of things/ideas/facts nor his own experiences. Later he touted a sort of philosophy which violates the 'Law of Identity' [A=A], violates the logical principle of the "Law of non-contradiction" considers de-foundational/anti-foundationalism, and touts para-consistent logic.
(A,(A,-A)) dialetheism and it's dialethe [(A,-A)] Namely Analetheism...[A,(A,-A)} & {(A,-A),-A]. And attempts to formulate "bounding contradictions" and creating "Post Logical-Explosion, associative groupings" such as to examine 'Logical Explosion" and to fetter out which contradictions could be accepted and grouped in one associative domain, and which must/should be rejected.
-After many years of personal, social, and psychological healing and repair, he strives to make balanced headway into his future, in a productive and sensible way. It is time that Mike saves the world to which he is emcompassed.
" The multiverse-of-us is wild.
The world is in our favor. "
~below are some rough geometric and venn diagram sketches Mike hopes to synthesize into a coherent thesis.
The world is in our favor. "
~below are some rough geometric and venn diagram sketches Mike hopes to synthesize into a coherent thesis.
Since all of Mike's spiritual fiascos, in-depth thinking & drama, he's been doing okay. Making the best of life! Comedy, Philosophy, Dating, performance
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